An Epiphany

Every now and then,
the Holy Spirit provides me
with what I call a personal epiphany;
a thought, point, idea that has never
solidified in my brain before that seems
like a profound insight to me.  I have only
been a Christian for about 12 years so many
of these may be old hat to some, but I thought
I would share them when they happen anyway.  

Today, I was listening to Christian radio and heard a
couple of songs that had I heard many times before.  
Some I have sung in church but today as listened to the
words something struck me.  The common themes of several
songs in a row were “more” and “show me”.  They were asking God for more; more power, more revelation, more love.  They were also asking God for a show; a show of His power, His glory, His majesty.  As the words rolled around in my head, I heard the whisper “just open your eyes”.  Suddenly, I realized how selfish I was to be asking the God who has given me everything and sacrificed everything to have a relationship with me for more of anything.    More love!!?? Christ on the cross is not enough for me, I need more?  More power!!?? Christ’s resurrection and victory is not enough for me, I need more?  As far as the show me part, He tells me the heavens declare His glory constantly.  His creation (the mountains, the valleys, the flowers, the weeds, the majestic, the insignificant, the difficult person) all reveal His glory, majesty and power.  I am surrounded and filled with His glory, majesty, power and love every second of everyday and here I am asking Him to show me?  I don’t even live a place seeped in the ugliness of a fallen world where I could come up with a good reason for not “seeing”.  All I could think was “oh God, forgive me!”